I feel as though I've lived this day a thousand times (or more!) since I was about 11 years old or so. You know the day I'm talking about...the ever-mystical Beginning. The Beginning of the rest of my life no longer overweight or tired or procrastinating or lonely or hungry or angry or unfulfilled or fill in the blank. Whatever. I've been here before, and chances are you have, too. Some of my Beginnings have been more successful than others, for sure!
So what makes today any different than the thousands that have gone before? I do.:) I'm ready now. You see, I'm coming off a long break from dieting and regular exercise. It might sound counter-intuitive, but I needed the distance from my previous weight loss patterns in order to gain some perspective. During the almost two years since I graduated from college in December 2008, I've been focusing on the inside stuff. Ever since I first started trying to change the way I look, I've gotten myself into all kinds of messes. Eventually, I suffered through a wide variety of unhealthy disorders/addictions/relationships with food, working out, and my body, and I needed to address those issues on the inside before I was really ready to make changes that would impact my outside.
So today I begin again, but this time it's different. This time I'm not a girl desperate to be someone else or someone who's looking for a new outer image to solve all of life's problems. Today I am a 25 year old writer who is rapidly approaching the completion of her first novel,I am a single woman who is finally open to meeting someone new, and I am a fledgeling vegan who no longer hates herself for loving good food. And THAT, ladies and gentlemen, is a Beginning I can really sink my teeth into!
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